I'm not saying you should but it's just a thought. Maybe try thinking out loud not necessarily reading. I must stress this isn't me telling you this works or that it'll cure you. It's just a thought I had and relates to something I seem by a guy called Lee G Lovett. Now he is someone I would definitely advise checking out and I did have some short term success with his method. Then I got lazy and fell back into old habits. But yeah definitely check him out