today I met some of my brother's friends and I feel bad at the end of the day
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today I met some of my brother's friends and I feel bad at the end of the day Because I really wanted to create a good first impression, they are cool, they are nice people and interesting, and I really love to meet new people but 99% of the times, like today, I can't talk, I am much more silent than I'd like and when I finally take the courage to speak I only embarrass myself, saying nonsense and with huge blocks and facial expressions that make me look like a fckg alien. I hate it because it usually requires a lot of time and effort so people can convince me to meet their friends but days like this just makes me decide to never again step out of my confort zone, it isn't worth it, I end the day sad and doomed, and wishing that I didn't go to meet those people, although they were nice and didn't have a bad reaction towards my stutter, but people begin to elude a conversation with you to prevent awkard moments... Pff and when I'm in bed my mind keeps showing me those sad moments. It isn't worth it. I really hate this