It's been a slow process. I started being self-conscious about it around the age of 12 - 13, when my teacher made me recite poems of famous Italian authors in front of my classmates (I'm Italian). Needless to say, I always stuttered like crazy in those occasions, and I always heard a few occasional laughs, which was only made worse by my teacher trying to make me feel better saying "I used to stutter too when I was young". It was never a problem socially though. As I grew up to 14 - 15, I managed to control it or hide it better, and I had lots of friends and even a girlfriend who I loved so much. Then, things hit rock bottom (I won't go into detail for the sake of keeping it short). My stutter worsened, and with it, my confidence and self esteem. Then I went to therapy, and after months of reasoning and reflection, I realised that I was my own worst critic, and that people didn't really care as long as I was being kind and friendly (otherwise I would never have been so socially "successful" throughout my life). It took courage and determination, but I decided to end all self-harmful thoughts and start believing in myself and my capabilities and qualities as a person. Everything improved as a result. You will get there too. I don't doubt it.