I completely understand. I have such a terrible time with my name. To me it’s the most frustrating thing. It molds how I live my life and what I can do/can’t do. It’s exhausting. My fiancé introduces me whenever we meet new people, picks up my prescription at the pharmacy, calls to order takeout, etc. I’d rather sit in the Starbucks drive thru for an hour than go in and order because they always ask for a name. My anxiety is through the roof anytime I have to make a phone call that’s not to friends or family. As far as advice, I spell out my name instead of trying to speak it. I also give my last name first by spelling it and then saying “it should be under FIRST NAME”. I feel like saying it in a sentence helps ease me into it. I have a last name that starts with an S so it’s very difficult for me. I’m getting married next year and my fiancé has a one syllable last name so I can’t wait to change it. In high school I went to a science summer camp (nerdy I know but it was great) and I registered with a nickname I could say and it was a huge weight off my shoulders. I don’t know if any of this helps but you’re definitely not alone in this.