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My experience as a stutter I had a speech impediment for as long as I can remember my life is miserable I didn’t have much of a childhood because of it children my age and adults never took me seriously because of my stutter and bullied for it. My friends and family especially my parents use to make fun of me for it. People treat me differently because I have a speech impediment and it makes me feel less of a person. I have trouble making friends and talking to people because of it school was a nightmare for me. So I basically became a mute to not get hurt anymore but it only made me more lonely and empty inside. I had nobody to talk about my problems so I just kept it all in even though I got bullied everyday and at home my older brother use to beat me up all the time. Every one I use to talk to usually just told me to spit it out when I had a block even though it was more frustrating for me then it was for them. Ever time I try to have a conversation with someone I fuck up and say something I didn’t mean to say but I only said it cuz I knew I would’ve have stuttered on it and people think I’m a asshole for it. I became a outcast to everybody and nobody wanted to be around me or talk to me life was a living hell all because couldn’t talk. Things didn’t get easier when I got older. Soon as I turned 16 I went job searching but nobody wanted to hire a kid with a speech impediment I went to over 50 interviews in a year just so I can make money to help my family out cuz we was poor it was depressing and took its toll on me every time I got rejected but I kept trying because I had a goal in mind to become something in life even though I got this curse. What really hurts me the most is being shunned as a kid and always being alone made me love talking to people and making them laugh because it’s all I ever wanted to do but because of my condition I’m unable to nobody would want to talk to a stutterer. That’s my dream where other kids my age talk about smoking weed doing drugs and having sex all the time all I want is to talk normal so I can be accepted into society I wanna be normal and boring like everyone else so I been trying to figure out ways to get the help I need. Having a speech impediment is one of the worst things to ever have I wanted to kill myself so many times it effected my mental health on top of having a shitty home life but I stayed strong and remembered my dream to finally be able to talk normal and be like everyone else that kept me going. Even though I’m 18 now I still stutter a lot I have low self esteem and really bad social anxiety and depression I won’t stop trying to better myself and be a better person and actually be able to form relationships with people despite having this disease that’s all I want in this life. Sorry if I went on a bit of a rant here I got no one else to talk to except the voices in my head and Reddit is a safe place.