That's a good question actually. It went freestyle in my mind and i started to type longer than i expected, i'm sorry about it. So here is a short answer, you don't have to read the "brainstorming". At least i wrote it somewhere. 😅 Short answer : I did a long road to face my fears, but i think i kept some types of avoidance yes. It's more about succeeding something to the end and finding a real place in the society. I'm a bit scared of human relationships at work, i'm scared that they read in me and see my weaknesses. I will do some researchs to start a course if i can. I watched some videos you shared ✨ It would be something meaningful to me to be a part of it. My first question would be, how did you become a coach ? 🙂 /// "Brainstorming" I used to do all these types of avoidance yes. I was a very severe stutterer from 4 to 16. Teacher/parents abuses, classrooms collapsing into laughter all the time. Punished in the corridor all the time. Everyday in the playground, fighting groups that imitate my stutter in circle around me, trying to catch all my legs and arms to make me eat ground, then jump on me like a pyramid. Sometimes all the people in the playground was in circle around me. I became a good fighter very quickly to defend myself, but punished all the time against the wall. No friends. I was a freak. Most people here know what it is i think. Fortunatly i had my sister. Then at 16 it went slowly better and better. I started to meet good people, and i did the "Tomatis method" for years. At 21 i started a graduate in specialized education. I was hiding my remaning stuttering as much as i could. But it was a very tough challenge. I was still destroyed a lot inside. Still smoking weed. Very sensitive to people's problems, with maybe too much empathy. I realized that through these courses i was mostly rebuilding myself. I was hiding my lack of self-confidence a lot, avoiding even good people and friends, like if i don't deserve it, or maybe i needed the loneliness i was used to. I felt like an imposter, and human relationships took me a lot of energy. But i was a member of their classroom and they didn't let me down. Really good people. Still i didn't feel legitimate and strong enough for this job, i stopped the studies after two years and started to do little jobs. But i met my girlfriend there, now i'm 39 and i have a 2 years old child with her. I feel really lucky considering my past. Meanwhile i did other studies, like cybersecurity, but just when i'm about to succeed something, i have an avoidance behaviour coming from deep inside, and i flee.... 🫤 The worst is that i succeeded it to end this time. But didn't pledge anywhere. Feeling like an imposter and loosing self-confidence again. I went back to little jobs and forgot my knowledge. Anyway i think screens and computers are just another way to flee human relationships. I accept who i was and who i am now, i still feel like a hidden freak, but i think i'm ok with it. I would just like to do something meaningful to me now. Maybe i could try to help stutterers. Or start a course to do it.