Hii. You're okay. I promise. You have a Masters in Counselling, that's amazing!! Stay strong and keep trying jobs you like, I'm sure you'll find something you love vv soon. Also, no, don't ever say that you're holding anyone back. You're amazing and you're so much more than your stutter. I'm super sure your bf doesn't even care about your stutter. It's okayyy, you'll get there. I'm also doing psychology and each day is tough, especially in our field where we need to speak so much. It'll get better and easier, or perhaps it won't, but we're enough. We're young and strong and capable and smart and we're enough.