I stopped stuttering but things haven't changed that much.

I stopped stuttering but things haven't changed that much. Hi guys Sorry If I'm going to write a long text but I fell I want to share my story with someone. So I've stuttered since I was 6 and this accompanished me until like 13 when I've tremendously reduced stuttering to the point that I've basically stopped, and as time goes, this get better. I still don't exactly know why I stopped. Before I stuttered I was a pretty social person, with a lot of friends and talked a lot. I was basically the popular kid. Then, it all started. I was in the first year of elementary school. I don't what happened, but the teachers tought that it was like some shock from starting school, so they sayed that in like some months it will have stopped. It didn't. But in the first 2 years of elementary school everything didn't changed that much, I still retained my friends and still talked a lot. But as time as gone on, I started to not talk because of the fear of stuttering. I remember the embarassing feeling when others sayed like "Why do you repeat words?" or when I had to read in front of the class, it was terrible, everyone watching me when I blocked, so I blushed and trying to ignore that but it was impossible. My schoomates never bullied me for that, only some friendly jokes and things like that, and I'm glad of that, because if they bullied me, I don't know what I would be today. From like the third year I started loosing friends, no one wanted to do group labors with me or take me in their team at PE, not because I stuttered, but because of how shy I was. Then at the start of middle school me and my best friend (The only friend that remained from the time of kindergarten) had gone to different classes. In that year we talked like 3 times. He immediatly had found others people to replace me. That year was terrible. Then, the next, the teacher moved me next to a person that was hated by everyone. We started becoming friends to the point that in less than one month he had become my best friend. He was the first person that I felt like I could talk freely and without caring that much of how what he would think. From that, still don't knowing why, I started to stutter less and less until now, at 16, I've basically stopped. Still in the second year of middle school, me and my old best had started talking again, and today we are still good friends. What a nice ending, you would think, but even if I stopped stuttering, the damage made by that still affects me. In school, even if I talk more and now that I've started the High school I've made some friend, I'm still very quiet and have fear of being the first one to start a conversation, for no reason. If someone starts to talk with me I can substain a pretty good conversation. I mean, It's not that I don't want to talk to people, is that I've got that strange fear that It's still with me since I started stuttering. But if back then I had a "reason", now it's more strange for me, because I don't know why. Again sorry for that long text, but I wanted to share it with someone. Thanks