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It has gotten worse suddenly There isn't anything NSFW about this ive simply just put it for people who wanna avoid negative posts. . I've been stuttering my whole life but recently it has been the worst it ever gotten. Normally I would feel anxious and still get a couple of sentences clean but now I straight up panic, my blocks got SEVERELY worse. My dad walked into my room and he told me to go out with him I was in my pjs and he was dressed formally so I needed to know if we were actually going somewhere or if he just needed my help carrying stuff... I said: Are we-... (and had a big ugly block) I tried again: Are we-... (I froze there again) (the eye contact WAS KILLING ME) Are we-... GggGoING SsssomewHerE oR wE JuST goNNa Carry stu- Stuff (my tone was all over the place I raised my voice accidentally multiple times trying to pronounce what I was gonna say) I felt so MUCH defeated and my jaw was clenching so bad to the point that it hurts. I saw dispair on my dad's face, and I think I woke up my sister with my tone. Last time I stuttered this hard was 8 years ago when I was a 10 I vividly remember it, we were getting ready for my aunt's weddings and I was so NERVOUS at the time I knew that I had to meet her fiancé's family and how I didn't wanna embarrass or make anyone feel uncomfortable by my presences. now in the present time it isn't a wedding that's causing my nervousness it's life itself. (sorry if I sound like a pathetic beta NEET loser this isn't my true self I swear) .