I'm just so so fed up

I'm just so so fed up I'm 17 and had one when I was 1-7 I had one then It stopped, then cause of bullying. When i was like 11 I was bullied so badly I bacame mute for a year and ever since I had a severe stutter i had the feeling of having to fight for every sound and it it just destoyed every bit of confidence especialy because no stratagies worked. Now for the past 2 weeks I wasn't stuttering but I never noticed until 2 days ago when my mum pointed it now and ever since I've been a stuttering mess again constantly thinking about it, compared to back only 2 days ago. I just want it to end