I'm not in the promise land, I still struggle a lot with acceptance. You are correct and have described it well, "allowing yourself to stutter and experience the feeling of doing so in public. The more you do it the more the fear reduces and the less pressure you put on yourself". Using this trick is in direct contradiction to what you know is the way. I agree that taking that journey is very difficult. Taking it yourself even moreso. This is where a *truly qualified* slp comes in. There is good therapy out there, but it takes searching.