Hey man. I can relate to your experiences. When I was younger, I used to be this really outgoing kid. I would always want to talk to people, I would make them laugh, I was pretty social. Despite my stutter, I really didn't care that much if I did. But, then something happened in high school, same as you. I think it was probably puberty or something like that but I started to not talk a lot. I didn't really have the option to drop out of high school and my school was pretty small so nobody really judged me as they knew me as the kid who had a stutter. Fast forward to now and I am about the graduate college, and I still struggle with holding a conversation and I still stutter quite a bit. Right now, though, I am really trying this new thing that I kind of self-diagnosed myself with. I am trying really hard to be confident. Every time I am in a social situation, I try really hard to act like I am comfortable. I try to smile even if I don't feel happy. I am trying to stay positive. I have found that it is kind of helping and I am holding myself better together and I feel happier than I did. Dude, you just gotta keep going. It's hard. It's really fucking hard for people like us. People who don't stutter don't ever realize how difficult social situations are for us. But you know what? There is no way to cure stuttering. We can go to therapy, but it will never be cured (Sorry, I'm venting too). I guess what I'm trying to say is that you are not alone. I understand where you're coming from, man. I really do, but let's try to stay positive and try to be confident together. Hope this helped