I guess I can do that. but do.i really have to spell it out? I have an elder sibling too and even a stranger can notice how different our lives are. she has more friends, more people to call and talk to. I've only always surrounded myself with the same friend I met 16 years ago and dont want to even talk to any1. I don't want to meet any new people and I avoid conversations with people even if the topic is something I love. I stay by myself all through the day. I dont wanna seem that miserable to my family who think I'm doing fine.