Please don’t give up. I used to think the same way when I was in high school and now that I’m a full grown adult, I’ve had several opportunities, including working in fire and EMS. There are different things that you could try, but for me, music was always a very good motivator and very good way oftalking things through. Definitely don’t give up and find what works for you. There’s nothing that you can’t do with the right attitude. Trust me, man I’ve been there.