Whrn you write indirectly, it’s always difficult to truly understand. But I do not think that’s what I ever suggested. “Perceived trigger to do a compulsive response” - I think you are avoiding saying “anticipatory fear is causing me to block” Write directly and with a few words as possible. I very much understand how compulsive actions are a part of this issue. But always adding it in makes for impossibly awkward sentence structure.