You're young. Having a stutter is hard, but it's the WORST at your age. You have a right to feel the way you do. It's a hard way to come up. I've also had a stutter since I was a kid (the only one in my entire family). I wanted to crawl in a hole many times over my childhood/high school/college days. I still don't know how I ended up in my life after all that because I never would have believed it was possible to have a good life while managing a stutter. It is possible, but you probably don't see it because "school" is all you know at the moment. Trust that school isn't "the best days of your life". In 10 years, you will barely even give a shit about it and you will have grown immensely since then and be better able to cope with this frustrating condition. Through my life, I have met many people who stutter. From childhood, to in my career and even doctors treating me for health concerns (not stutter). Just hang in there, learn how to manage your anxiety about speaking because it makes a big difference when your heart doesn't explode out of your chest from speaking nerves. You'll get through this.