I am getting through the day terribly,completely abdicating from speaking/phone calls escalate my stutter.I have gone to therapy and the conclusion wasnt something i wasnt aware of-i have an innate ability to speak well,its just that i have developed some secondary behaviours to hide it.I can barely talk to my mother without getting out of breath-the first words in sentences are the hardest,but most of the time i block halfway through anyways.