I feel the same way. I'm always anxious about facing life. Going out or doing things or even picturing myself landing a job feels so stressful due to my blocks. I hate having to live this way because I know I have the potential to succeed in life but why do we have to deal with issues like this when almost everyone around is taking the ability to speak for granted. I can't even go to a shop taking public transport because I can't say where I'm going or give directions due to the blocks and it's embarrassing and frustrating. It drains me completely after any interaction, an activity which should be normal for everyone else. Not being able to interact with people in a place where I've been living all my life (I've lost touch with the language and now it's causing me added stress) is so crippling. I hate having to live like this. I'm just pretending to be the person who has it all put together even though I'm dealing with a number of issues within, with blocks being the main issue.