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An Undergrad Nightmare Story Just a story that I recalled from my undergrad. I went on to graduate school, so I survived, haha, but this will always stand out as something I really felt traumatized over. Maybe you can relate or have a similar experience. In my first year of my bachelors degree, I took a course, and I forget the name of it, that required us to have to film ourselves teaching somebody how to do some simple task. Like bake a cake or change a tire..something simple like that. It had to be between 8-10 minutes in length, couldn’t be read from a script, and it could NOT be edited at all. THAT is the part that freaked me out. I’ve made YouTube videos before, and what allowed me to do it was I had a script I’d written, and I could record one line at a time and say it over and over until I could say it without stuttering. Editing! With this assignment, though, I wasn’t allowed to edit, and if you are like me, you are TERRIFIED of being on camera where your stutter can be rewatched over and over. Even approaching the assignment, trying to work up the courage, was mortifying. I had a full fledged anxiety attack trying to do it, tried three different times in one day, and wound up in tears of frustration and discouragement. I felt humiliated and felt like a freak. I appealed to my professor, but was told that everybody had to do it, despite having a stutter, and that he sympathized, but in order to pass the course, this was the assignment. I know many people with my degree who never had to film themselves for a presentation. I generally don’t mind giving a speech, but having to film myself without any sort of script and then submit it, knowing that it’s going to make me look ridiculous...put me on display, feature my blocks and my facial expressions....it felt extremely invasive to me. When I finally got it done, I actually felt like I’d been through some kind of psychological trauma, even if that sounds pathetic to some people. I did complete it, and I got a decent grade on it, but I strongly still feel that such an assignment shouldn’t have been forced on someone with a severe speech impediment, and especially with a phobia of being on camera making a speech that others will not only watch but will also grade and judge and can watch over and over. I was even willing to give my little presentation in front of the class. Nope. He wanted recordings to watch on his own time and grade. I survived it, it didn’t kill me, and I’m not advocating that I’m some special case, but I just wanted to share what I feel was a pretty traumatic event, one that took over a week to deal with...if you include the dread and anxiety leading up to the actual recording.