I’m about the biggest negative nancy you’ll find in this group, but that is one thing I never minded. Like you said, stuttering has held you back from basically everything in your life. Trust me, I feel you on that. So, if it’s caused so much hurt, and negatively affected your life in so many ways, then why can’t we just appreciate the one or two occasions it actually gives us a small boost? I’ve had lots of girls tell me the exact same thing, and I’ve not only accepted their somewhat odd compliment, I’ve worn it like a badge of honour. I can’t seem to let go of even one single fucking negative event associated with my stutter, so I’m going to hang on to those super rare positive events too, goddamnit.