The negative emotion you have is making your stuttering worse. Do everything you can right now to have more positive emotion. Exercise, eat healthy, and get sleep, and sit in front of the mirror and give yourself compliments for the things you have achieved. We know as people that stutter that stuttering itself usually doesn’t hinder our life that much. What makes our life difficult is the fact that we judge ourselves in the presence of other people. So remember that the key to your freedom lies within you, though other people such as a therapist can help you. I really recommend telling as many people as you can, with a smile on your face that you stutter, and stutter on purpose to show that you’re willing to live as a person that stutters. People will like you for your vulnerability. And if you can, try to get a job where you can practice your speech but it’s not relentless talking over and over again, where you don’t have any time to calm down in between interactions. I, personally, was getting discouraged but then I found the Dave McGuire Program. They have an inexpensive self help book on Amazon called Beyond Stammering: Getting Good at the Sport of Speaking. It truly is a great, holistic program that gives a breathing technique and touches the psychological side of stuttering. Then I would also recommend reading “Redefining Stuttering” by John Harrison. It’s an absolutely great book that goes exactly into the mind of someone that stutters. You can find the book online for free, just Google it! Finally, the YouTube channel “Stuttering Mind” is a great channel by a guy that has almost completely broken free from his stuttering. The channel is encouraging, empowering, and he adds a little humor to his videos. Check it out man! Also, really consider seeking professional help!