I felt like this my entire life! I usually stay super quiet so people don’t have to hear me stutter, so I struggled with socializing or making friends. Eventually, I just sort of accepted that I wasn’t made to be social (not sure if that is healthy), and just became best friends with myself. I know it sounds sad, but loving yourself and realizing being alone doesn’t have to be sad really helped me. I eventually grew to be more comfortable in myself and found happiness through that. I still get sadness from how my stuttering affects my daily life, but it doesn’t stop me from finding happiness. Your happiness doesn’t have to be what makes everyone else happy. When I got older and started working, I realized most of the older workers didn’t want to socialize, were quiet and awkward, and all of them didn’t even have a lot of friends. It made me realize that I was sort of living that adult life in my childhood lol, and it didn’t feel as abnormal anymore.