I love the honesty and straightforwardness, Not alot of people in this community are like you they're all delusional gaslighting fuckers. Here's the thing though, you can't say "don't have a victim complex" when there's constant waves of why I should think this way. That's like saying try to row against a downhill stream to reach the top on a handmade raft, I don't know what I'll be doing or how I'll think in 10 years but I hope it's like you.