The \*only way\* to find happiness is to work with what you've got and adapt. There are people with far, far worse disabilities than stuttering who lead happy lives because they've accepted their situation and learned to live with it. Not only learned to live with it, but to be happy with it. Stuttering is part of me and who I am. If a cure for stuttering appeared tomorrow I wouldn't take it because that would mean erasing a big part of who I am. That's called accepting and adapting. The only path for joy and happiness with a disability is to stop fighting it and learn to adapt. You will figure it out eventually.