I've been stuttering for as long as I can remember. 30 y/o male. Not the repetitive kind of stuttering where sounds are repeated, but with blockades. Some sounds just won't vocalize. I am relieved to say that at this point in my life, it doesn't affect me much anymore. It has clearly shaped who/how I am; I'm never the most outspoken in big social gatherings, but I'm not nervous anymore. I'm not ashamed anymore. Not as I used to be. I remember clearly how it was when I was younger - I had a long period of time where I couldn't even pronounce my own name because the K sound was giving me nightmares - my name is Caspar, so it's difficult to avoid. In school when we had to read aloud in class, there was no way to escape the words either. I felt so ashamed, and just writing this reply about it now I remember the feeling as it was yesterday. But I think I've been on a long path where, looking back, the primary factors that helped me are probably: 1. I've gained confidence from other aspects of my life (success at university, great friends, got girlfriends, etc.), 2. I've learned how to adjust to the stuttering (I can feel blockings coming and adjust on-the-fly, practice makes... better), and 3. I've accepted that stuttering is just a part of me. When I had speech therapy (aged \~15) they told me that simply accepting the fact that I stutter could be a coping tool. I gushed at it, because in the end I wanted them to "solve me".. However, now, looking back, I really believe it to be true. I still stutter occasionally, but when I do, it doesn't get to me anymore. I hope you find your peace with it!