I can definitely empathize and relate to your frustration 100%. I’m not gonna give u the same old script about how to supposedly fix your situation because sometimes I feel like I’ve tried everything but am still crippled by my stutter. All I can say is just allow yourself to process all the emotions your going through, remind yourself that it’s not your fault and try your best to not feel shame about something you can’t control. I really hope that you’ll get a break and somehow find a way to live the life that you want to live despite your stutter. You’re not alone.