Stuttering is a horrible disability that affects all aspects of our lives. It is a physical (neurological) problem. One thing to do is look into psychological counseling as to how to live with a disability. Another thing I would recommend is a speech aid like the Edinburgh Masker or DAF - they are wonderful. Sometimes religion or a 12 step program like CODA can be a big help. NAS is also a good resource. Stuttering is so difficult but somehow we have to keep going. Many of us relate and wish you the best.