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TL;DR , Started to stutter in gr.4 , now in university and have become adept at hiding it due to stuttering at the beginning of sentences. As well as just losing the stutter naturally. Oftentimes do not stutter for long periods of time(hours) due to picking the words that I start a sentence with. My stutter has been on and off since grade 4. I am currently a College/University Junior (3rd year). I moved houses a lot, thus being to a lot of schools. My first years at a new school were grades 4,6,7,8,11 and university. I stutter the most at the start of sentences, with difficult letters changing throughout the years. With my current list being: K/C, H and B The most severe years were grades 4,5 and 7. Where I would stutter almost every sentence. It had been to the point of being stuck on a word and having to restart sentences, but I was able to push through just barely. Years where I had a mild stutter include grades 6, 8 and 9. Where I would have a bad day every week or so, and other days it could be non existent. My best guess at the change in severity would be a new environment. I haven’t thought about it too much. Periods of extremely mild to no stutter are grade 10 to current. And has improved to the point where I only stutter a word an hour, or even less. Sometimes going on for hours and hours without stuttering. Or if I do stutter, I can hide it very well. I had a speech therapist in grade 9. I think the request was made in grade 7 for one, but took so long due to the scarcity of speech therapists. She advised me on how my mentality could be and different ways to go about the day etc. as well as teaching a few techniques such as: starting softly, starting with a silent h before a word, chewing fake gum, whispering the word/sentence before saying it and saying words as I breath out. I was called out on the silent h technique quite a few times. But overall well worth it. I have learned to pick my words carefully. Knowing that I will block on a certain word that would fit the context of the sentence better than the word that I end up speaking. Occasionally ending up in an odd word. Other times, I’ll begin to say something when no one is looking at my mouth. And I block on the first syllable, and just let it go, breath and try again, all in under a second or two. The worst is saying a sentence fluently, that I had predicted would come out choppy. And having the person ask you to repeat yourself. Where they now have their full attention on you. Overall, I still do stutter, and a very observant person who knows what to look for would notice that I do have a stutter within a few minutes of direct conversation with me. But otherwise it is gone in the sense that it doesn’t directly affect me, as it did in the past. Edit: Thinking about the speech therapist, and the thing that stuck with me the most was when she drew a graph, with the y-axis being unitless, and the x axis being time. And she drew points on it, with a line connecting it. Saying that each point represents a day. The lower a point is, the worse the stutter on that particular day was. And she said that slowly and steadily, my stutter could improve. The points would steadily rise and come to the point where a low point relative to the points near it would be at the same height as a high point was months ago. Indicating that a bad day in the present would be similar to a good day from the past. I always liked that.