I left speach therapy because I feel like I will never be fluent, even though I was getting better

I left speach therapy because I feel like I will never be fluent, even though I was getting better Hey guys, I (21M) stutter since I was a little kid and did a loooot of speach therapy in my youth and got to a point that it was passable in day to day speach, but I asked to stop because I was tired of it and felt like it wasnt working. But when I entered college the new enviroment made my stutter worst, really bad. Then I got back to speach therapy, and started all over again the trainings, recording etc. with a year of therapy I got a lot better. I learned to switch to what I called fluent mode, basically speaking breathing right and being aware of your rythm. Really usefull for presentation and work, but exhausting for daily conversation. So I got stuck in this plato again, and stop improving. My therapist really thinks I can be fluent with more work, but I'm not so sure. Have you ever feel like you are almost there but not sure you can be there. Speak in the "right"/fluent way is exausting for me, and does not feels like me (even though my family and friens say that is smoother that way). It's hard to explain, but is like I'm playing a character, not being me. It sucks beacause most of the time I can go my life witout thinking much about my stutter, but the little things get me. Like people assuming I'm always nervous because of my stutter, or more nervous than I'm actually am. Or miss the beat of a story I'm telling because I got stuck in a word. Sometimes I feel lazy for not continuing the work, but I also hate doing the work over and over again and feeling that I'll never speak fluent with my own voice, and not a fake one. foreinger here, so forgive me for any spealling errors.