I get it man, humans are social creatures and when you can't be social you don't feel human. I also know that we only got one shot on this spinning rock, and I refuse to be a victim and blame circumstances any longer. I'm not as X as I want to be, I'm not as Y as I want to be, but after 30+ years of blaming my life on things I can't change and wallowing in misery... a flip switched. Nothing changes if nothing changes, and Momma didn't raise no bitch. If that means I have to go to bed early instead of after midnight so I can get to the gym at 5:30 AM to claim the squat rack so I can elevate my T the rest of the day and alleviate my stutter... well shit, that's something I can control