Man, u have a problem that u should work on it. There is no time for worrying about mockery .believe me, I know what u feel every time someone mocked or even bullied you . And as a person who was mocked for nearly 15 years of my life, even from the family members. I AM telling u should focus on recovery and ignore ur emotions about being mocked cuz they will just affect you negatively and by time mockery will not have any effect on you cuz u will be immune to any type of it and that's the real solution to it . and GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR JOURNEY OF RECOVERY