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I think I should quit this Hi, I'm Fran and I'm technically in my third year of law school. I stutter since I was 12 years old if I'm not mistaken. I am the kind of stutterer who really doesn't want to change but because I am very negative, I really don't think there is a cure for this. It all started when I was in school and we had to give the "Present" in class. (I don't know how it is in other countries) It's basically when the teacher takes attendance and you have to say like "I'm here present", well... you know what I mean. I started having problems with the letter P, sometimes the teacher would put me absent, or when I would say "I'm here" instead of saying "Present" the teacher would get mad. I don't think I was bullied because I stutter, just jokes within the class. We all used to tease each other. I had some girlfriends at my school but it was really hell, always trying to make my stuttering as unnoticeable as possible and always covering it up by saying "Oh, I'm nervous" when in fact it was and is something that comes naturally from me. After a while everything got worse and worse, I already had catchphrases like Emm... and..... Am... in every sentence I said. I am a musician and I think I express myself very well through it. I spent the first years of law school as normal as possible, I had friends and such, but when it was time for class I always prayed that I wouldn't have to talk. Something that is unacceptable in a lawyer, isn't it? Today something very sad happened to me, I was giving a presentation and the professor had to make me stop because it was taking me a long time and the other groups had to continue, I clarify, I do not blame the professor, I think the problem here is me for being like that. And I know that more times like this are coming where I will not be able to speak or defend my client. I don't know if I should continue studying law. Does someone is like me? a miserable negative stutter? who doesn't want to change? Sorry if there are some grammatical mistakes but English is not my mother tongue, have a nice day