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I'm really bad at sharing my internal views & thoughts, so I'll just share my story instead: I started stuttering when I was around 3 years old, after I joined school. But it never really bothered me, probably because it was very mild - maybe just 4–5 words in an entire week. I didn’t pay much attention to it back then. Things changed when I was 16. I shifted to a new school in a completely different area, farther from home. My earlier school had been just a short walk away, and I had been there for over 12 years. After the switch, my stuttering suddenly became much worse. Even now, over 12 years later, I still struggle to say my name without stuttering. Looking back, I’ve always been a bit socially awkward. When I changed schools, not much changed on the outside - but my mindset did. I became anxious and scared of being judged or coming across as weird. People around me - parents, relatives, teachers, always told me to “open up” more. As I got older, that pressure to “act normal” only grew. And by “normal,” I don’t even mean in terms of stuttering, because at that point, no one even knew I stuttered. It was that mild, only I was aware of it. But the combination of internal pressure and anxiety from the new environment made my stuttering spiral - from a 1/10 to an 8/10. Now it feels like a 9.5/10. I can’t speak a full sentence without stuttering. I’ve noticed that on very rare days — usually when I’m distracted by something intense going on in life - I don’t stutter much. But when I’m preparing for a call or speech or presentation, it gets significantly worse. So comparing those rare fluent moments with my usual struggles, I’ve come to believe that my stuttering is largely psychological. And after reading several articles, comments, and books, I feel even more confident about that.