commentr/StutterDecember 16, 2016

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I absolutely agree, and I'm glad you asked that question, because it leads into an important issue amongst a lot of stutterers. I spent four (mostly) wonderful years with my crush from early middle school. We didn't start dating until midway through my time in college. Even after a year or so of dating, I thought she would be the one. I had only recently become "dating material" when I got to college, so as you could imagine, I was suddenly experiencing emotions and feelings that I had only dreamed of having one day. But as time went on, the feelings started to fade. I think a key determinant of a relationship's success is how quickly our feelings towards one another can rebound after a dip, and how sensitive they become to perceived flaws in the other person. The more time that went on, the smaller my threshold for BS became, and each hole that was dug became deeper and deeper until it stopped making sense for me to try and climb out each time - only to know I'd fall right back in. I ended things a day before our fourth "anniversary", and have been jumping from girl to girl ever since. Haven't found one I'd consider changing my lifestyle and my choices for. The issue I alluded to earlier revolves around a trend I see among stutterers and those with speech impediments - we set our goals and standards too low, and then we reach them and realize how pathetic and limiting those objectives were in the first place. Not to say that my ex was a product of my low standards, but more so that we often let our lack of self confidence take the wheel when deciding what it is we want to achieve. "I bet I could be the team lead on this project in school. Well, actually, I'm sure my stutter will find a way to hold me back, so second-in-command is fine with me." Then you get to second-in-command, and you realize how attainable your first choice was - despite whatever it is that you think is holding you back.

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceEmotional ExperienceIdentity & Disability

Subthemes

Avoidance & SubstitutionHelplessness & AgencyIdentity & Self-Perception

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