commentr/StutterApril 12, 2024

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i don‘t think my stutter affects my personality or limits me in life, at least not in the way others here describe it. i don’t care about validation from others anymore, all i care about is if i can live with the person i am. or maybe i‘m just trying to see the good side of having such a random disability ..? without a stutter, i would be more masculine, loud, confident and dominant, which may not a bad thing, especially as a woman, but i think i would abuse that "power"? because that‘s all i‘ve ever seen, people abusing the power they have over others. i can be pretty narcissistic and ugly with my choice of words sometimes. deep down, i‘m bitter, i think i‘m a bad person and it‘s a good thing i‘ve never really been able to express that in real life. my environment is full of selfish, violent and loveless people and i think i would be just like them. i see it as a gift or a lesson from god, because there is a reason why my stutter is at its worst when i‘m angry/depressed and at its mildest when i‘m expressing my love/when i‘m feeling safe and happy. not only my stutter, but a lot of things i’ve been through have made me become more empathetic, intuitive and sensitive, it’s humbled me in many ways and i‘m very thankful for that.

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Causes & VariabilityIdentity & Disability

Subthemes

Stress & Fight/FlightAuthenticity vs. MaskingIdentity & Self-PerceptionAcceptance & Pride