You can still live a rewarding life, I am proof of it. Figure out what you want in life. Family/ Wife? House? Job? Friends? Wife - Focus on things you can to improve yourself besides your speech. Be kind/ caring, take care of youself/ look good. Many women are perfectly fine with a man that stutters. You meet women online if you are too nervous to ask one out in person, maybe even discus it with them prior to the date to ease your anxiety. Family - Approach every member in your family and discuss your stutter and how you feel about it, it really helps them understand. As far as your own family, you can be a great father, my son is one of the most important things in my life and I intend on giving him them best childhood/ upbringing possible. Being a father is the most rewarding thing Ive ever done. Job - This can be hard but my best advice to you is get a job that speaking is minimal ex. construction, lab tech, warehouse, truck driver, etc. You will feel much better about your job if you dont feel inadequate because of your speech and you will have much less anxiety. The key is know your limitations and work with them, find work that suites you, you'd be surprised what a steady job/ income can do to your confidence. Friends - Get in touch with your friends again, tell them why youve been distant and explain your stutter to them, if they are good friends theyll understand and this conversation will bring you closer. Ive met alot of friends through my wife and her friend group. I get how you feel, watching people have effortless/ fun conversations makes me so jealous because by nature thats how I believe I would be. You are more than a stutter, you have a personality, you are important, and things will be better if you work at it. I deal with anxiety/ awkward conversations every day but I get through it and you will too. Use your techniques taught by your speech therapists and be positive.