Trying to read aloud and the words won’t come out

Trying to read aloud and the words won’t come out I consider myself to have a mild stutter, lately it’s been severe. It usually comes in waves, sometimes it’s hard to get some words out, but I’m pretty fluent for the most part. Right now it’s been impossible. It’s really messing with my head. I feel more introverted than usual, more isolated, and hopeless. I’ve been turning to things that aren’t good for me, drugs & alcohol. Any escape from the feeling of being less than. As I write this I’m sitting up in my bed staring at a book that I’m trying to read aloud. Feeling discouraged.