I'm taking my own advice. The art of letting go.

I'm taking my own advice. The art of letting go. Thought to share this for anyone who might be going through a slump or has had a similar experience. I've recently rode a long fluency wave which lasted about 3 months. This 'wave' has come and gone through my life as a stutterer. It's when I suddenly have an outburst of fluency and go from stuttering in every speaking scenario to 80-90% fluency without feeling any stress or anxiety attached to speaking. I've noted that in the past few days my stutter has reverted back to a horrid state of blocking and anxiety reactive habits of looking away from the person I'm speaking to instinctively when I block. I could easily feel disgusted and hate myself, but I'm going with the path to accept that it's okay b/c honestly lol it is. We're all human, we all deal with something and I count my blessings that I even had the chance to be fluent for as long as I did. I know the random wave of fluency will come back again one day then go away the next. What I'm trying to get at is - don't attach yourself to expectations. Don't attach yourself to fluency or confidence if you get a taste of it. Don't attach yourself to the negative self loathing either when you feel at your worst. Just be. Just live your life and accept that nothing in life is static. Ups and downs are a part of the experience of life, stuttering and fluency included. The more you 'worship' the good, the heavier the bad will be. It's all balance mate. I have 2 job interviews coming up right when my speech reverted back to being terrible. But it is what it is. I'm going to do my best and be kind to myself. You should too.