Hey bud, I know how you feel. I’ve been there. Just wanna say there is no reason to get desperate. At 20 years old, I wouldn’t be able to even come close to “accepting” it. It’s hard to picture it now, but you can find a career that doesn’t involve a lot of talking. I was able to go to a great college, and they helped me a ton. The professors accommodated me every semester and let me do other things for a grade other than presenting to the class