Brothers please help me for university

Brothers please help me for university Hello everyone Today was my first day at college and it started with introduction which went pretty well but it went crazy downhill after [that.So](http://that.So) after the introduction,the class started with basic questions and i fcking knew almost all the answers as im pretty good at studies but couldnt dare to raise my hand because of my speech blocks.What if i face one mid sentence ,wont i look like a clown?And there was a guy giving all the answers and I could already see the whole class looking at him in awe and how charming we was,and after the class many girls were talking to him. And i was feeling so depressed sitting on my bench and thinking how could it be me since i have faced the same problem of not making friends even though i am a pretty interesting human being . Can you all please tell me how should i start to have the courage to speak without caring about speech blocks and how to overcome the embarrassment that comes with it if you actually block.I still remember how i wouldnt go to school for weeks after one incident of such blocks.I sometimes prefer to stay behind and out of everyones sight so that they dont know that i have speech issue which in turns negatively effects my mental health as i need someone to talk to.There are so many pretty girls there but i just cant start a conversation without the fear of blocks just sprinting in my head at light speed and my whole body shaking. My whole fking day just goes around just sitting idle and singing my favorite songs(CAS,Lana del ray,Radiohead,Coldplay etc.)and i just try to hold my hands whenever it is my turn to speak so it feels like someone else is holding my hand and comforting me it feels so light after writing all of this