Laughing

Laughing Does any stutterers laugh at their own stutter? I sometimes do but I don’t know if it’s right. I laugh at myself because I keep on stuttering and have thoughts like “Nooo, I’m going to stutter on this word! xD”. I think I laugh to make myself feel positive and cheerful but I don’t know if it’s wrong because sometimes people snickers/laughs at my stutter (more of a negative way like bruh she’s so slow, r u kidding me, why can’t she talk faster) and I sometimes feel hurt by it but I don’t want to be a hypocrite since I laugh at my stutter too.