Hm, it seems to me you're not going about this in an entirely fruitful way. But first off, let me say that I think you're on your way there. Especially with the steps you've taken to seek out help for managing your stutter. So really, in this regard, it just becomes a matter of patience. You don't have to see exactly where you're going yet, you just need to keep doing what you're doing, and then you'll get there soon enough. Now, as for your perspective... I think you need to stop focusing on all these other people and statements and behaviors and uncertainties. You can't control any of it, and it's potentially not even relevant to you. I think you need to focus more on taking care of yourself. As I said, you're already going in that direction, but all these extraneous thoughts don't seem productive. You can only really manage _yourself_. That should be your goal. Cut away all the noise and focus on yourself and what you want/need/feel. Now, it's entirely possible that you can use communication to affect how other people behave in relation to you. But don't start there. If you head towards a place where your attention is directed at yourself, you don't need to dedicate any effort towards others. Worry about that later, if at all. It's not _one thing_ or _one event_ that makes us "accept" stutter. It's a process. We _do_ it by - _doing_ it. So keep doing what you're doing, and you'll get there. I'm sorry if this is not the answer you're looking for, but this is the answer I can give. Patience seems like infinity when all we want is change now. We have to learn to navigate without knowing the entire map in advance.