You talk about one of the things I worry about if I ever get myself into a long term relationship, because not being able to perform my duties as a boyfriend is something that terrifies me. It's important to me that I do my job well, and having a stutter certainly makes things more difficult. My girl may be able to take care of herself, but in the society we live in where we have ingrained gender roles, it's crucial to a man's ego that he is, at the very least, able to be the protector *from time to time*. I've had some success in clubs, but this has always been where my friends have wingmanned me and I've taken it from there. It's another punch to my ego where it's like I have to depend on others to do something other people can do by themselves. I'm lucky in the sense that my stutter isn't severe, and when I have some alcohol in me, I can hide my stutter better and give the impression that I'm a normal guy, although of course this has given me another psychological complex where I cannot reconcile the more fluent but inebriated version of myself with the sober version of myself. I feel like they are two completely different people and feel like a fraud the next day, because I believe the sober me is the real me and I've lied to the girl the night before. I imagine her meeting the sober me and she's like, 'where's the guy I met the other night?' etc. I haven't really had a long term relationship to be honest. I've had experiences with girls, but I've become quite comfortable in being alone. But from time to time I get the feeling being with a person in a more long term capacity, whatever that would look like, would be nice.