I'm NOT afraid of taking, I'm afraid of stuttering

I'm NOT afraid of taking, I'm afraid of stuttering I really hate it when I stutter. Despite ten years of training (I'm now 18 yo), I still experience it every day, and sometimes it gets really bad. I want to do well when speaking in front of many people, but my stutter makes me feel like an idiot. I'm NOT afraid of taking, I'm afraid of stuttering. I speak somewhat normally, but it feels like I'm neither a stutterer nor a fluent speaker. It really sucks, but I've accepted my stutter long ago. I'm not sure if I've ever met someone experiencing the same thing