Keep pushing. I think the fact you took on, what would be your biggest fear, and said "I'm coming, you mfer!" says a WHOLE lot about you. Keep this in mind: tons people WITHOUT a stutter would shy away from this... but not you. Kudos to you for that. Read your post, but instead of focusing on the stutter, focus on what you actually tried to accomplish... now it sounds like an amazing story, doesn't it?