I totally get you, esp the carrer bit, I've only ever had low paid dead end jobs, mainly driving where I'm alone most of day, and I never seem to last to long at any job I go to.. I know my stutter has completely changed my direction in life, it seems like I'm two people, the one I am now and the one inside, whos always thinking of what my life should of been.., but I'm 60 now, I know my stammer is with me till I die, I don't have false hopes of it suddenly going away, or me improving.. the only thing I'm grateful for in life is my children and grandchildren, that's something my stammer didn't deprive me of.. Stay strong, and I hope your able to pursue the career you want