Slow down buddy, let's not get ahead of ourselves here. We struggle with speaking fluently sometimes. Things could be a lot worse, and are for many people. Speech therapy would not have made you rich, and being rich would not make you happy. You seem to have heavier stuff to unpack than your stutter and with time and maturity you hopefully will. Please don't blame your parents for how complicated the world is and don't you dare blaming your stutter for the "pain you won't inflict on yourself", whatever that means.