This makes me so sad to read, whatever you do don’t give up. As a person whose lived with a stutter my whole life and is now 28, I personally have always taken a lot of pride in living with a stutter. I think it makes us more patient and thoughtful, and if I had to offer advice find something that forces you to use your voice but also brings you joy. For me it’s singing, I hope you find peace with it ❤️