No, it’s not the worst. You are, however, making it worse all by yourself. Everyone is a little tense and excited before a date. If you concentrate on listening, acting calm and take your time when speaking, there is a good chance you might actually enjoy it. And if he/she is any decent human being, she will listen as closely to you as you did yourself. Stop wallowing in that self-pity-‘everyone-hates-me’. It’s all in your head.