Hi, thanks for your response. It wasn't easy because he happened to humiliate me sometimes. He used to say "In life you must be the first or you're nothing". I never agreed with it... I didn't follow this path so i was like the black sheep of the family. I realize that all of it comes from the life he's been through. He was always trying to be loved by his own parents by proving his value, while his brother was "the one", and he, didn't exist. So it was my turn not to exist. But that last day at the hospital, he was in pain on his bed, and i put my hand on his chest with all the benevolence i had. He felt good, then he put his hand on mine and said : "you're really a good person". It was the first kind words he said to me, and i will never forget this moment. I never wanted to be a winner, i only wanted to be a good person. So yes, i can forgive him and move on. He did what he can with what he lived, and so did i, i just chose a different path.